#618
Tues. Jan. 17/17, St. Theresa’s before the Blessed Sacrament
(A Great Twist)
Sit quietly and write. I want you here with Me. It does not matter where the “here” is. If you are reading these Words of Mine, then
you are “here” with Me.
Throw off all hatred. Throw off all anger. Throw off all concerns and just be oh so
grateful to be “here” with Me right now.
I am with you always, yet we can
start to say I am with You always Lord.
What a great twist.
We depend on, believe that He is with us
always, yet are we willing to commit ourselves to being with Him always?
Yet, if we jump quickly from anger into My
Most Sacred Heart, then you most certainly are trying more often to be with Me
always, rather than being with, and only with, your angry self.
Your anger does not cling to Me, but rather
clings to and endeavors to nourish you with your self-righteousness and
selfishness and self-worth.
Yet, ultimately after we have immersed
ourselves in our chosen anger, we feel less complete and almost self-loathing
to think we allowed our anger to run amuck and destroy the relationship we
have.
But, be aware, we can go from feeding our
anger to feeding our self-loathing. Do
you see the downward spiral of sin? Yes,
call it sin. Don’t dance around it. It is what it is. Otherwise if it is not sin,
it does not tear apart our relationship.
And if you are in anger you most certainly
are not in a good healthy relationship with Me. Right?
Sometimes we want to avoid calling
ourselves sinners don’t we. We prefer to
think that we aren’t perfect like God and can’t even strive for that
perfection.
So notice how we eagerly forgive ourselves
because we are only human, instead of seeking out the Sacrament and be released
from the bonds of sin.
We then are not only the sinner, but the
judge! We either judge our sins too
extreme for God to ever forgive, or too minor to bother Him with. True?
True.
Do you see the further error we add to our
sin of anger. We judge the goodness or
badness of it, i.e. we determine what Graces our soul needs to heal from it.
And in case you did not remember, you
cannot hand out Graces as if they come from you.
You were not Created as the Forgiver and
Saviour of yourself or others. You can
only offer yourself and others My Forgiveness which comes to its fullness in
Confession.
How often do we resort to the fact that,
for the most times, Jesus, I am a good person.
Again we hold the scales, again we are looking
at ourselves as not really bad at all, yet we fail to tell the Lord “I want to
be better, I want to be closer to You this day Lord than yesterday.”
I want You to lead me Lord and not fail to remind
me, Lord, of how I can grow closer and closer to You.
Are we satisfied to believe and confess
within ourselves that we are really deep down a good person. Is that all we want to be in our eyes?
Are we not eager to run to the Lord and beg
Him for the Graces that will make you a better person each and every new holy
day?
Are you satisfied with the you of today and
not eager for a newer you tomorrow?
This has nothing to do with content and
discontent. This has all to do with
knowing God more fully each and every day.
Depending on Him more fully each and every day.
Asking Him to guide you out of anger and
letting Him judge others.
Oh Sweet Jesus, open my eyes to the fact that
I can’t fix me, only You can.
Oh Sweet Jesus, bring my spirit into a
deeper understanding of our relationship.
Oh Sweet Jesus, lighten and enlighten my
heart to serve only You.
Oh Sweet Jesus, lead me by the hand this
day. I give You permission to lead me by
the hand this day.
The only judgment call I can legitimately make
each and every day is that I need You more in my life this day and the next and
the next.
Less of me and Tonnes more of You.
Let your heart be peaceful. You have asked Me to lead you and so I
shall.
I Love you and will do nothing less.
