My purpose for you

#36     Sept. 23, 2012, Sunday 12:30a.m. – going to bed – started Rosary and the Lord asked me to write.

“It is quiet and calm, not much is stirring – yet I want to stir your heart to make you sit up and take notice of the things I need you to share with others.

Their lives are of great value and purpose.  I want them to live in honesty and truth wrapped in love.  Each person has a purpose, each person is equal in My eyes.  I have ordained that each of you plays a vital part in creation.

Look at a bike.  When you go to buy a bike, you do not say I am going to buy a chain – a chain can’t get you out on the road biking, yet the chain has a very important purpose.  The bike can’t run without it.  So you don’t say ‘I bought a new chain’, yet if you were asked to name the really important parts of the bike, it would be one of them.  It is not the handlebars or spokes or wheels or pedals – all of which make a bike a bike.  By themselves they can do little.  Together they do great things.

The same with people.  Each person in a crowd is part of a crowd but is not the crowd – to have a crowd you need individual people – each coming together to form a crowd. 

Now crowd around and listen.  I need you.  Ask Me what I want you to do?  Don’t plan to do this or that without asking Me first.  I have a higher purpose for each of your actions, for each of your breaths.  I know you need direction.  You need guidance.  Let Me be your guide. 

What purpose have you chosen for your life?  By what wisdom have you come to this conclusion?  Would you be willing to lay it all aside and ask Me what I want of you?  Ooh says you.  “What will He have me do and will I be interested in doing it?”

Now there is the dilemma.  That is why I asked if you would set your intentions aside.  If I ask you to do something that appeals to you of course you will make every effort to do it.  However, if I ask you to so something that does not appeal to you – hmmm the response may be ‘well I will have to think about that’. 

Strange how you say you want to please me and do My will but you still have your conditions.

It is a challenge.  Are you willing, without hesitation to do My will?  This is not a challenging question I am putting to you in a mean way.  Yet it is a question that challenges the truth of what you say “I want to serve You, do Your will” and what you ultimately will decide to do.  If you have already said you want to do My will, then why is there any discussion? 

Ultimately, I am trying to gently point out to you that your head may think it is nice to say “I want to do Your will” however your heart has not caught up to that yet.

Keep asking Me for the grace to dispel your hesitation. I will willingly give it to you, if you are sincere.

So hush your mind, live in the love of your heart in Mine, surrounded by love, permeated by love. 

Nothing else matters.

Such a hard concept to grasp, yet never stop trying.  It is your will to be willing to reach that summit of surrender that touches My heart.  I know you desire this.  Be patient and never doubt that a moment spent with Me even if it seems so simple, so trite is ever wasted. 

Sleep now, thank the souls in purgatory, treasure your family in good and bad times, harden not your heart, laugh, rejoice in knowing how much I love you.

Hush, sleep, be still and don’t wrestle with your stubborn nature, but rest in Mine. 

Let your heart hear

#35     Sept 20, 2012   St. Theresa’s chapel,  9:50am   

Welcome.  Sit quietly with Me and listen to the prayers others are saying.  Listen with your heart, ignore your ears.  Do you hear their supplications to Me?  This is not a trick question.  Do you hear their prayers – their very human presence before Me contains many prayers.  I acknowledge each one, I kiss each one, their petitions are dear to My ears. I am consoled by each person’s presence.  If only they knew the great consolation they bring Me.  Tell them, tell them that their presence consoles My heart.  I want them to know that this is a simple gift they can give to Me.

O to have more consoling My heart.  Beg Me to grace others to come forward to console My heart.

Do you hear their prayers?  (Lord, I am not sure how to answer because I am so used to  using my ears instead of my heart.)

So, what a great lesson for you, for all, to listen with your heart.  What a blessing because it takes you beyond your human senses to the other senses, spiritual senses I have endowed each person with .

It means being still.  Notice when you hear with your ears, you can be talking yourself and have all other noises around and still you can hear other noises. Not always distinguishable but noises all the same.

When you are still and sit with your heart listening you hear the hearts of others – which you can’t hear normally at all. 

So listen with your heart to their heart.   Right now stop writing and listen and tell Me what you hear.

(I hear aching Lord)  Yes, hearts aching for answers, hearts aching to know Me more fully, hearts aching for direction, hearts aching, just aching and even they do not know what for.

Listen again and tell Me what you hear.

(I hear rejoicing Lord.)  Yes, rejoicing hearts even in the midst of aching.  Rejoicing that I am present, rejoicing for a loved one, rejoicing that they are able to be here with Me.

See, start to listen with your heart.  It will come to you what the prayers are that are coming from their hearts.  You do not have to know the details – I will explain them if you feel it necessary. 

Free your heart to hear.  Let your heart hear.

In such a way you come into further communion with Me.  It is not My desire that you stay ‘out there’ making summations, but enter My heart with yours so together we hear the hearts of others.

We become more sensitive, more accepting, more less controlling, more free to pray from our own heart and move deeper into Mine.

Listen again.  What do you hear with your heart?

(People from all over the world extolling You, singing Your praises and faithfulness.)

You see you can hear with your heart far beyond the confines of this chapel.  You are part of My creation and thus connected by Me, through Me to ALL.

(I hear great moans, Lord.)

Yes, these come from those in purgatory – almost like a hymn to Me on your behalf.  They wish to suffer to set you free.  What sacrifice.  Thank them daily for offering their sufferings for your benefit.

I  know you had never thought of it quite like this. You think to pray for them to release them from suffering, yet we never think to thank them for suffering to free us, to free you.

Sure we have asked them to pray for us as we do for them, but this thanking takes it to another level.  To thank them for their suffering puts a new light on the purpose of their suffering.  They don’t do this because they are not perfect, they do this out of love for mankind.  They want no one lost.

So thank them, thank them, thank them for this delicious sacrifice.  Their sacrifice nourishes our soul, delights and lifts our soul, creates a desire to serve thusly. 

Make haste to your knees and thank the souls in purgatory who are willingly working on your behalf in obedience to My will.  When you praise and thank them, they reflect these prayers to Me and My heart intensifies My love in your heart.

Go to your knees!

So your prayers of gratitude to them as they serve My will are far more outreaching than just your prayers for those in purgatory.  The grateful prayers acknowledge the divine purpose they are fulfilling through their dedicated suffering.  

God of All.

#34     Sept. 9, 2012, Sunday, 12:30pm

(I just finished reading the book “Mister God this is Anna” – by Fynn – a true story and it dawned on me that “I am to want for nothing.”  I want to be free from fear, anxiousness, pride etc.  The only thing I need to want for is EVERYTHING – that is – God.  God show me this, if this is what you want me to write about, if not that is perfectly fine with me.)

As you were reading the last part of this book, I nudged you to apply it to yourself and you did.  You have caught the message, now endeavor to apply it.   Ask Me for the graces so that what you desire is not the lack of something such as emotions, feelings etc. but the lack of something you need. You need Me.

So when you ask Me to take away your fears and or anxious times, change it around.  Do not ask to be free of these, but ask to be more and more full of Me. 

We want for this and want for that, yet all anyone needs is Me.

You waste valuable time and graces asking for things you want instead of begging for the one thing you need – Me.

You look at yourself – your ‘cupboard’ and see what you think you need.  “I need to get rid of this or that.”  Like sorting through clothes. 

(Ahh, I just caught myself going back to see what I had written – but this book is not what I have written but what He has asked me to write. I need you on these pages Lord.  I do not want or need my interpretations of You on these pages.)

So back to the topic.  We want to be rid of certain things without realizing that once these things go, what fills this void?  Once fear goes does greed sneak in to take its place?

Wanting something gone that you see as a flaw or a part of you that you don’t like is not the same as wanting Me to fill all of your inner spaces. 

If I ask you ‘what will you replace the fear with?’ what would be your answer?  Peace, ease, comfortableness, unfear?  That is what you want in place of your fear right?  And that is natural.

Now, though, I am going to ask you to step it up a notch.

Instead of asking to be free from this anxiety/fear you have at certain situations, ask to be full of Me for all situations.  Do not only reference Me in the tough times but also in the good times. 

I am still lacking in you because I am not your center all the time.

And yes you say you are trying.  I know this.  But you did ask Me to explain to you what the book had sparked in your soul and I am endeavoring to do it. 

So don’t interrupt Me with ‘well I thought I was already doing this or that’.  Obviously not, otherwise I would not feel you needed further explanation.  Remember when I am speaking to you it is because your heart has asked to be closer to Me and I want to honor your request.

So turn none of My explanations away as if I have said them already or you know that already.  I do not waste words.  All I have to share with you is to bring you closer to the beating of My heart.  So that your heart will be in rhythm with Mine.

So the message is a very simple prayer.  ‘Lord, instead of asking to be free from my fears, anxiety, etc. give me the grace to ask to be full of YOU.’

Remember I want to fill all ‘the want’ places and spaces in your heart.  If anything else takes My place, you are less full of Me and more full of you.  And, I ask you, can you make the wind blow, the birds fly high and low, can you color the flowers just so?  Can you breathe on your own?

So you see the ‘you’ is very limited whereas the Me is limitless – can take you beyond ‘you’ to much greater heights and depths of My creation.

NOTE:  I am in charge anyway!

I have allowed this book to touch you in many ways – to show you more bits and pieces of who I am and who I want to be for you.

Do your needs and wants outstrip what I can supply?  Do you feel an earthly solution will suffice your needs and wants?

Why do other earthly solutions gain more trust than My solutions?

Check with Me first.  If I wish to come to you and thru earthly circumstances I can and will do it if I think that is the answer.  But don’t hesitate to ask Me first – I am serious.  Ask Me first!

What do you really want for the women in need of post-abortion healing?  Have you asked Me what I want for them? 

So ask Me now and I will reveal it to you.  I need them to know My love, My mercy, how I behold them as My beloved – put this on your PR site.  Put My words out there.   I want them in a deeper relationship with Me than they had before.  I want them to know their child’s love which is unbounded by space or time. I want them to know they can talk to Me, chat with Me, explain to Me and they will not be interrupted or challenged.  I want them to know that I am greater than any sin.  I am in love with them, to strengthen them, to abide in them, to sustain them, to encourage them, to cry and laugh with them.  I am the best friend they will ever have.  I outshine the Sun.  I need no assistance.  I am assistance, help, faithful, kind, patient, before them, surrounding them.  I am a patient lover.  I will not stop loving and waiting.  That is My character.  I want them to know Me as the true force in their life.  I can erase all doubt, erase all vanity, erase all dislikes.

I have sacrificed all to be ALL to them.  I answer to everyone who calls on My name.  I am God of all.

Facing your fears

#33     Sept. 6, 2012, Thursday, before the Blessed Sacrament at St. Theresa’s 10a.m.

You don’t appreciate the little crosses I let you carry.  You would be delighted to be rid of them.  But they are meant to show you how much I love you.  They are not sent to test you, but to bring you closer to My Cross.  How can you endure My Cross if you can’t abide your crosses.

I need your attention. Do not waiver from looking at Me and being with Me.  Do not let your crosses get in the way of our union.

Certainly the devil wants you to keep away from sitting before Me in adoration so he will put your body into a state that is not comfortable. 

But isn’t My love more attractive and fulfilling than your uncomfortableness.  It is all about fear.  You fear feeling this way, so perhaps if you avoided this place you wouldn’t feel this way – you would feel better – that is the wily devil working on your fears.

But does not my argument have more clout?  Do you not want to be in the presence of All Truth, All Love, All Mercy no matter how you may be feeling?

It comes to this.  Who is the center of your life?  What will you permit to be the center of your life?  Your fears or My love?  It is true.  That is as plain as I can say it.

You want to run from this instead of embracing it.

I am here and you are here.  Now this uneasiness comes over you.  Do you leave seeking some relief from that false god?  Or are you willing to face it with Me by your side?

A mean question?  eh?

You have to choose.  Is it all about Me or all about you?

I will leave this with you to contemplate.

I love you, I love you, I love you.  Open your heart to this immense love that cures, heals, is merciful and brings abundant peace.

He must increase

#32     August 29, 2012, Wednesday 10:10 a.m.. – before the Blessed Sacrament at St. Theresa’s

“There are many things I want to share.  One of these is to keep close watch on My words.  When reading the bible let My words seep into your heart.  Do not try to figure them out or see if they apply to you.  Just let them seep into your heart.  Just treasure them because I have spoken them.

Certainly, sometimes they will jump off the page and speak to your soul, but don’t read looking for a message.  Read knowing that in each word of Mine there is a message.  The message first and foremost is of love.  I share My words with you because I love you and want to nourish your heart and soul to the fullest. 

Think about when you eat certain foods you eat to nourish the body and you hardly ever ‘break down’ what this or that food is doing for the good of your body.

That is how I want you to read My word – know that it is necessary for your heart and soul and just read it.  You don’t have to read a lot, but as you read remember and praise me for the fact that I want to share My truths with you.  Don’t look for any hidden meaning.  If I want you to see something I will let you know.

For instance you read at Mass John 3 “He must increase and I must decrease” and it popped out at you that this is what you are endeavoring to do – to let you decrease and let Me increase.  You have been affirmed again by My words to everyone that this is what I call you as a servant to do. 

I do not ask you to decrease to belittle you.  No such thing.  I ask you to be willing to decrease so I will increase in you and you will be My heart and hands in this world.  As long as you stay in you, I will not grow – My graces cannot flourish, people will not get to know Me. 

So your will has to be, if you wish to serve Me, let go of the limited you and let the infinite Me shine forth from you to others.  You are my watering vessel.  Unless you serve as you have been created to do == to love== none of My water of love will flow forth. 

Let go of feeling that obedience means subjugation – nonsense.”

(I am not sure what interrupted this writing time, but is seems to end here)

Not all will believe.

#31     August 27, 2012, Monday, 9:30am – st. Theresa’s before the Blessed Sacrament.

The Lord asked me to let the Bible fall open and read what was before me.  “the obedience of the Lord’s servant.”  Is 50 4-11

I  wanted you to read this to realize that all I am telling you will not be accepted by all.

This seems to shock you.  Did you think all sorts of people would love to hear My words on certain topics.  Not likely.

This has made you feel sad.  Now you have a slight insight into how My heart aches for all those whom I love.

Your heart cannot ache this way because you do not know and love All as unconditionally as I do.  If I did not love unconditionally, I would care less if they heed My word or not.  Their response does not make Me love less, but it is all part of My agony, My Cross and now you get to share in a bit of it.

When  you embrace the Cross it is really only embracing the small Crosses I bring into your life.

I ask you now to embrace My Cross --- oh says you --- this is totally different --- yes it certainly is.  And how blessed you and others are to come to this realization.  You see it is not about your small crosses in life – that is all about you. Rather it is all about My Cross, sharing in My Cross that brings light and life to the world.

And you thought I wanted to show you from this reading of Isaiah how you may suffer because all will not accept this writing.   But alas, and yet alleluia, it has nothing to do with you and how you may be scoffed for writing these thoughts of Mine.  Rather it is about the fact that even My people – some of them – will not accept My words written through you.  It is not a denial of you.  It is a denial of Me and how and through whom I wish to make Me known.  They deny belief in Me, not belief in you.

Which, ultimately, is more important – belief in Me and My words or belief in you my servant?

This is a great and blessed revelation to you.  So don’t sit in sadness that My words you write will not be accepted by all.  Rather rejoice that some will be led to Me and My marvelous grace and blessings and love and mercy.

Do not get caught in the devil’s deceit that some will turn away and how horrible that will be!  He will never reveal to you that many will be touched and saved by these words of Mine.  

He (the devil) wants you to take ownership of these words and thoughts so then you will be discouraged if some do not accept them.  When these feelings come over you, KNOW they are not from Me.  They are meant for you from the devil to distract you from wanting to be My servant and write as I have asked you to do.

He does not want My words to reach a single soul, so he will make you feel sad and discouraged that All will not believe these words I have asked you to write.

Remember the young man in the gospel who turned away?   He turned away from Me not you.  He did not want to grasp the depth of Truth from Truth itself!  So do not ever think you will fare better than Me – hahaha

Now sit, gaze on Me, glorify Me, be grateful that your heart is open to receive and record My thoughts.  Perhaps yours is the only soul I want to read this. Perhaps not.  But take great solace, comfort in the fact that I love you and want you forever to dwell in My heart.  

How do I get your attention?

#30     Aug. 27, 2012,  Monday, 8:40a.m  at home, after breakfast.

I know you were wondering what I have to say.  Isn’t it a great thing to look forward to not knowing?

This enables you to go far outside of your limited thoughts to the thoughts of the Lord.

How interesting eh?  Do you know the value of My thoughts?  They reach the hearts that otherwise are hardened. They reach the minds that think they know it all.  They reach the depths of a person’s soul because they come from Me and are meant for them.

What a treasure we have – to be able to know the very thoughts of God.  Now rest assured we will not reveal ALL here because the mind could not capture the immensity of it ALL.  But these are My thoughts I am sharing so I hope anyone who reads this will treasure these thoughts as precious pearls.

My thoughts are not your thoughts and that is ok.

You need know what I want to share with you and you will notice how My thoughts most times go quite against your thoughts.  That is why this message is so hard to grasp.  We find it hard to let go of our own thoughts which at times we feel are pretty profound. 

But what great joy to be receiving and reading My thoughts.

So often we say “I wish I knew what God wants or what He is thinking about this situation”  However sometimes when we get the response, we don’t believe it, or we don’t want that response and toss it aside.  But each time we ask, He answers – it may not be what our mind thought to be right but it is even right-er.  It could not be any more right since it has come from God.  And we don’t even praise or thank Him for speaking to us, especially if it is not what we wanted to hear.  Correct?

So quiet yourself even in the middle of all sorts of noise and listen for My voice.  I come seeking souls who are willing to listen and abide in My words. 

Some people have asked you “How do you hear His voice?”

From now on, just tell them to sit quietly and listen.  They don’t even have to ask a question.  I will know if their heart is open to hear My thoughts, My words.  It is believing that I can, I want to speak to them – to their heart.

I am not saving My thoughts, My words for only a few.  I want ALL to hear and let me settle in their hearts. 

They often ask “How will I know it is God speaking and not me making it up?”

Tell them --  I do not lie, I do not brag, I do not have false Gods before Me,  I am honest, I love unconditionally.  I do not barter,  I talk the truth, I tell them what they need to hear not always what they want to hear.  My words are soft, gentle, precise, cutting, exact, kind, thoughtful, inspiring, stilling, calming, polite, sincere, belligerent (why do you use this word Lord?)

Because sometimes people only get the message when I use terms they are more used to.  I want to be in their face, in their soul, in their heart and sometimes I have to use words that they understand, that will reach them.

So don’t be shocked!  I told you that My ways are not your ways.  And however I reach in to the dark center of each soul is my prerogative.  I am only completely honest.

Some think I am all gentle and I am gentle, but there are also parts of Me that know the parts of others and how to reach them.  Once they have met Me, then I am more gentle but sometimes I have to wake them up with a loud word or two before I have their attention.

This does not sound like Me – but it is Me.  Know that My gentleness knows that sometimes it has to be ‘in your face’ gentleness.  At ALL times it does not mean that I don’t love. I love at all times and it is in the driving force of this immeasurable love that I have to get into some people’s faces.  I want them with Me in heaven.  However sometimes their souls are so dark that it is like shining a bright light into one’s eyes – it hurts, shocks, awakens, gets one’s attention. It is meant to hurt?  It is meant to awaken the soul.  To transform it from darkness to light.  So I may shine a ‘bright light’ into someone’s eyes (soul) so they will see Me as I am – loving them totally and entirely and so wanting them to be one with Me.

I will get back to you later – now go to Exposition – make haste, I wait for you there!

Pour forth My love

#29     Aug. 25, 2012, Sat. back yard, 11:15a.m. – beautiful day

Do not let your heart be troubled.  I know you are thinking about your mother’s house and if we will get new tenants.  Leave it all up to Me.

Thank you for practicing to put My Love in all circumstances – your heart will gradually, without prompting, place My love in all circumstances.

Do you hear the siren?  Place My love there.  Sirens indicate emergency, accident, stress – but put My love there.  It is there already, but let your heart recognize all it can do by putting My love there.  It is an act of your heart because My heart with its marvelous love is there already.  So in conjunction with, in union with My heart put your heart’s love there too. 

You want to dwell in My heart thus this is one of the parts for dwelling there.  And when My heart goes to a serious situation it does not go there stressed or overwhelmed or sad.  It goes there out of love for the persons involved, in love with the persons involved, one with the hearts of the persons involved.

Can your heart do the same as you eliminate the franticness and just be there in love and for love. Our senses seem to react differently to these situations.  We feel anxious, fearful, upset, disconnected, anxious.  Yet if we apply our heart full of love to the situation it will change.

It is only human to have these first feelings.  I have created them in you.  But you want to be nearer to Me so as you grow nearer to Me and My requests of you, these human feelings will not dominate the situations.  They may first arise, yes, yet as you put My love at the scene – pour forth My love from your heart on the scene, the scene will change eternally.

As I have said, My love is already there however you placing My love there changes you and thus changes the scene.

(Lord, I am having a hard time concentrating cause of the convo in the yard as they move.)

There will always be distractions.  So does not My voice overcome even distractions.  You can hear their voices but you are recording My words.  I delight in the conversation going on.  They are joyful in what they are doing.  Have you praised Me for them – their lives, My love for them?  I know your answer, but you can still do it now.  Since you are familiar with My voice, I will remind you what to do so My blessings are never wasted and your soul learns more and more how to encompass My creation.  To love My creation, to love all the snags in My creation.  All the things you see as snags in My creation.