a brick wall

#103  Mar. 11, 2013,  Monday, 10:05am, St. Theresa’s church before the Blessed Sacrament.

You see Margo it is not the mortal sins that drag us down like an anchor around our neck.

The mortal sin certainly harms you, yet it stands out so vehemently that it is not hard to miss.  It may be hard to admit, but through your good conscience it stands out quite obviously.  It may not be easy to confess, yet it cannot hide away.  You know what it is.  I know what it is.

Come to Me and lay this heavy burden before Me and I will give you rest. 

But it is not the mortal sins I wish to address.

It is the smaller sins that we feel aren’t too significant and really don’t need to be addressed.

See how sly the evil one is.  He tells you “well it isn’t mortal”, “it isn’t that bad”.  So from his advice we take ourselves off the hook!  Phew!

Yet these small sins build up, build a barrier between you and Me.

Think carefully now.  If you tell a small white lie – (what is the difference between a white or black lie?  Please tell Me) – imagine you have put down a brick before you.  Now you can still climb over that brick – it really doesn’t get in your way much.  Then place another brick in front of you for that small piece of gossip, which you tell yourself is not really gossip. Right?  So put another brick down in front of you for denying that ‘it really isn’t gossip.’

Continue to place bricks in front of you when your anger takes you to continual anger, when your thoughts take you to improper thoughts, when your quick tongue takes you a step closer to slandering. 

How does your wall look now?

And unless you address each of these sins quickly, you will see that soon this wall cannot be climbed over.  It really is a barrier between you and God.

Sure, you say, ‘I can walk around it.’  No you can’t.

You can’t get away from the damage you continue to do to your soul by avoiding your responsibilities.  Walking around this wall is a form of denial.

‘Not me Lord.  I didn’t build that wall over there.’  And instantly another wall starts to form in front of you.

It is such pride that keeps me from revealing the things I have done that build barriers between me and God.

Our pride dominates so much of our lives and tells us that ‘you really aren’t that bad…look at the nice things you did today or spoke today.’

Do you see how we hide from our true self worth by excusing ourselves with even the smallest straw of congratulating ourselves on our great accomplishments.

How much we want to see ourselves as good;  how afraid we are to see the un-good in ourselves.

So I tell myself I am really good going to church often, hoping that will burn brightly before the Lord.

We avoid going to God and saying “Lord I am more of a sinner than a saint, please help me.”

It is not done in a berating way but in full realization of who I am most of the time and who I would love to be all of the time. 

It is admitting to God, but even more importantly to ourselves that our perfection can only come through His continuing flowing graces.

Me telling me I am bad puts me in a hopeless state.  Me telling God I am bad leaves me open to ask Him to help me be good-er. 

I, God, am not using ‘bad’ here as evil – although even that I can handle – what I do mean is that you know there is an ideal here to seek for and that is My Will.   And sometimes we do badly in that seeking, yet coming to Me releases you from carrying ‘this cross of trying to be perfect’ leaving you very open to having Me help you carry this Cross.

Coming to Me sets a fire beneath you that will help you to burn away the ‘bad’ parts that keep you from being truly in My presence.

Ache for this fire. Ache for the graces to Come to Me to seek perfection for your dear, dear soul.

Do not try to escape from this task.  It is a task well worth aching for.  Don’t stop your heart from searching for this at all times. 

Keep the vision of the ‘bricks building this wall’ in front of you.  It is a very good visual to have so we can realize that our small sins throw up a barrier that we don’t even expect or suspect.

We think if it is not mortal, then not to worry.

Do not worry but rather be informed that you need to address all your sins otherwise the barrier, bit by bit, continues to grow and soon you not only will not be able to climb over it, but you will not be able to see over it and then you become more of your god to you than I Am.

Sit,  adore and thank Me.

You are mine.  I love you.  Rest assured this reflection to you and all today is not done in criticism but in Extreme Love.  I want ALL of My People, ALL, to be with Me.

So thank Me for the grace of revealing ‘this wall’ to you today.