the Cross of Anxiety

#157  Wednesday, July 17/13, 9:25pm,  at home.

Thank you for coming aside Margo.

There is always more I want to share with you – your obedience will bring great joy to My People who are anxious to hear My Words of Love.

Quiet your mind and heart.  Breathe Me, Jesus, in;  Breathe Me, Jesus, out.

You have noted that you have been more anxious lately.  I allow you to carry this Cross, to embrace this Cross, to give you a deeper sense of how to carry this Cross.

Note that now when you get anxious you begin to ‘Breathe Jesus in’ and then ‘Breathe Jesus out’.

I am allowing the anxious moments to give you the opportunity to practice this rejuvenating Breathing Exercise.

See how it acts as a trigger for returning to calmness – the body and mind recognize My Name and thus respond lovingly.  As long as you exercise the ‘me’ word --  ‘what is happening to me?’, ‘why again Lord?’, ‘I hate feeling like this,’  ‘ release me, Lord’, the anxiety continues.

But unless you Breathe Me in to refresh all  your body cells especially the ones that are agitated by anxiety and then Breather Me out over and into the world, you will still stumble around in your anxiety not solving anything and not being a faith-filled servant.

When you are struggling with you, graces stop flowing.

It is when you change your thought process from ‘o poor anxious me’ to “Come to me Lord, Refresh Me, cleanse each cell, touch each brain wave that is anxious, whisper your breath into me”, then will you see how you can serve the Lord coming from the depth of your anxiety.

We may run to the Lord when we feel anxious, but we don’t say the proper words that bring Him more fully into ‘being in us.’  We beg Him to get us out of these feelings.  Yet many times we don’t beg Him to fill us with more of Him.  We don’t ask Him to show us what He wants us to learn from this.

We are dying to feel normal again.  Yet not dying to stop and serve Him even in the midst of this challenge.

I may say “Lord, Lord I give this to you,” yet fail to say, “Lord, Lord fill me with more of You.”

We are more anxious to be rid of our anxiety, but maybe not as anxious to serve the Lord.

When we get anxious there is no need to ask “What do You want me to learn Lord?”  He wants you to be freer from your self-absorption which feeds anxiety.

So simply realize that when you feel anxious, He is not your ‘be ALL center’.  Somehow the broken you has stepped back into control, self-satisfaction, self-centeredness, self-absorption.

Sometimes you may struggle with “Why”, “What brought this on Lord?”

If your mind can lead you into anxiety, give it permission to allow your heart to lead you closer to God.

Understand that your anxiety is a great indicator of who is dominating your heart.  Is it you or is it Me?

With Me dominating it, anxiety does not survive.

I want to make this clear.  That just because you invite Me into your heart does not mean you will never be anxious again.  Very False.

It means that when you feel anxious – remember you have fed anxiety very well for many years – that it is an indicator that you need even More of Me to dwell in ALL of you.  Again, it may not eliminate anxiety altogether, but it is a direction arrow to seek More of Me and less of you and --- ‘what you have to do’, ‘what you have to accomplish’, ‘how important you are to others’, ‘how much people depend on you, etc, etc’, ‘who you need to impress’ --- right?

When we get anxious, the mind races into the future with ‘what ifs.’

So now when the mind starts to focus on ‘what ifs’, bring it back to the here and now by Breathing Me in, and Breathing Me out.

Gradually, the body, when it receives this Breathing technique, will click out of serving what is not reality and bring us back to the fullness of each moment.

The Breathing in and out in the present moment --  which includes ‘Breathing Jesus in’ (count of 4), hold, ‘Breathing Jesus out' (count of 4) blocks your mind from racing into the unreality of the future and gently returns you to the present.

Ache to always be in the presence of the “I AM”.  Then there is no wandering into the unknown future which is so not where “I AM” to you this day.

Our mind races into the future with ‘what ifs’ and ‘if only’, while the body struggles to and yet cannot keep up. So such anxiety arises because of this split in time which the mind and body cannot live in. 

Thus anxiety!  We are broken so there is dis-stress, dis-ease, which can get worse if we allow and nurture our anxiety with our own efforts.

Bring Me on board.  Make Me the mender of this breech between the mind and body.  Breathe Me in so that all the cells of the mind and body are nourished by the same breath at the same moment in True Time.

Now hasten to rest.  I love you.  Sleep well and stay very close to Me.