Feeling Sorry for Yourself

#242   Sunday, Mar 2/14,  3:30pm at home

I want to speak to My People.  No matter what is around you that is trying to tug your heart away from Me into your hurt heart, let it go.

Toss it to Me.  See how well I can catch even the dirtiest trash that somehow gets a hold on you and wants you back in yourself. 

How the heart that was headed forward can get so a skewed by one small word or comment, that the path of feeling good turns to anger.

What happens?  Why does something so simple jump start your anger?

Come aside and let Me chat with you awhile. It is simply that the devil jumps in with something he knows will throw you off.  I should say that, when you hear something that ticks you off, your reaction can go both ways.  It can go to God and act in a loving way or it can entertain the devil who is always standing very close ready to feed your hurt heart with not-so-loving words and reactions.

Each person reading this knows what I mean.  You were probably very proud of yourself and how well you were doing with your prayers and your endeavoring to serve Me.  Yet this one little itsy bitsy few seconds can turn it all upside down.  And don’t we LOVE to blame the other “Look Lord how they upset me.”  As if the Lord is going to chase after the other person and slap them on your behalf.

“Heh Lord I was not doing anything wrong.  So they must be in the wrong.”

See how you are still trying to justify yourself.

Just as I have said before “Be still and know that I am God.”

But you did not ‘be still’ did you?  No, No, No.  You thought you had every right to justify yourself, and then see where this futility leaves you. 

Did you pray for the person and ask Me to bless them?

Are you willing right now to stop writing and ask Me to bless them?

You want me to join you in feeling sorry for yourself.

I am sorry but I will not satisfy, I cannot satisfy a hurting self that is not willing to accept the Love I offer which I ask them to share with the other.

We sometimes like to stay feeling sorry for ourselves, although I know all that it does is that is serves to nourish your pride.

But heh, this is a great lesson isn’t it.  Although you might not see it as such, but it is.

Guess what?  You still have pride, your heart can still feel sorry for itself, your heart  would love to have My Heart prove you right and them wrong.

So the lesson is --- do not let down your guard for an instant --- you can and will because of human nature, however, know that when you do this the evil one moves a little more of him into your heart --- maybe it is his alarm clock, or a pillow or a night stand.  Whatever, he still brings more of him into your heart because you have welcomed him to.

This sounds so mean.  But it is the Loving Truth.  Get out of your “feeling sorry for yourself heart.”   Move into My All Loving, All Embracing Heart.

You are cross because this happened.  And you see you are cross at the person instead of turning instantly inward and checking on your heart.

I have told you, you can read it in the Bible --- it is not what you take in, but rather what  comes out of your heart into the world.

This is a great example.  But don’t we all hate being shown the Truth!  Especially when we are cross and angry.  It is the salt on the wound.

However, how else can I show you?  If I tell you and you can’t relate, it is like some fairy tale.  But not so here.

I want you to see that My Words from start to finish contain only Truth. Sometimes My Truth is hard to take because we are still feeding on our own truths which are based on our emotions, or made up beliefs of who God is for me. 

Really and truly, this is a great lesson.  Just when we think we ‘got it all’, the world slips something in that throws us off kilter.

It is also a great example that I want to free your pride even more.  I want you to unbind your pride and hand it over to Me.

“O Jesus, I surrender myself to you,  take  care of everything.”

Know that this list of ‘myself’ contains a lot of stuff that sometimes we are not conscious that is still there ruling in our hearts.

If I do not allow for opportunities for you to see the parts of ‘myself’ that still need fixing, you will grow even prouder thinking how well you are doing in this ‘Jesus & I’ relationship.

What your prayer can be is “Lord continue to show me what I still hang onto.”

And that will mean that you allow Me to bring certain circumstances into your day to allow you to choose Me or choose you.

The sign “Choose Life” applies to this.  It is Me, -- “Life Profound” -- that you are to choose.  Otherwise all else is death.

Now climb into My Heart and hang on.  Bring all your emotions with you and hand them over into the Fire of My Love so that I can burn the ‘you’ of your emotions out of them and replace them with the emotions I created in you for your good and My Glory.